The future belongs to those that believe in the beauty of their dreams. :) When the power of love meets the love of power, the world will know peace. :) There's no telling how many miles you might have to run while chasing a dream! If I'd observed all the rules, I never would have gotten anywhere! - Marilyn Monroe. I've made some mistakes in my life. But bad choices don't mean I'm a bad person. It just means once upon a time I had bad judgement. The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love, and be loved in return. :) Torn between two. Which do you chose? The one you love, or the one that loves you in return? The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense. ;) If someone talks behind your back, it's just because you're ahead of them.

10/30/10

holy SHEEEETTTT!!!!!!!

last night was Woodglen's annual Halloween Dance. so i went with my mom and Jenna.

we got in and i was looking for someone to talk to. i saw my neighbor max sitting with some of his friends! so i went over and sat down haha. he's sixteen and has the cuuuutest friends :D so i was sitting there talking to him and checking out his friend Chad who ive known forever cos him and max have been friends since we were kids. and then i was like hey max! whos youre friend sitting behind yooouuuu:) and so he shifts a little bit and i was like DAYUMMM!!!! it was his friend Jarrek. he is so fuh-riking hawt! so jarrek was like hey josie:) and i was like hey:) and then chad was like haha i see sparks flying byee im checking on the kiddos! so me max and jarrek got up and moved to the back table.

max sat on one side, i sat on the other, and jarrek sat next to me :D he like leaning into me and then poking me in the side really softly so it just kinda tickled lmao. and then max left too! so we were sitting there all by ourselves. he was like lets go in the gym:) so he grabs my hand and like leads me into the gym. so we sat on this little bench in the gym and he kept like tickling me and stuff i was like THIS IS AMAZING. and so he like reached around and grabbed my waist and pulled me onto his lap:) we were talking about like which schools we went to. he was like totally suprised i was 13. i was like yepp i still go to century:) and he was like wow youre gorgeous.

best time ever

and then he was telling me about how he went to Stargate (charter school! evan and josh went there too) and i was like so do you know evan and josh? and jarrek was like haha yes i do. fags:) and then he started talking about how he goes to Legacy but is moving to arizona next wednesday (UGH FML) and we just kept like flirting all night. it was so great! hess soooooo freaking hhhoooottttt! and so i was like can i see your phone for a second? and he like would hand it to me halfway and take it back and kept doing that until i was all up close and then gave it to me, so i put my number in. (it was hard cos his phone is like really confusing) and i gave it back to him. so then he reached over and took mine outta my pocket and put his number in mine.

and then the party was like getting close to over :( so we went out on this chair in the lobby area thing where max and chad were. he had me like sitting on his knee :D ahh goshhh<33 :D and so then he was like we have to go. max is driving me home. :( so he like grabbed me by the hand and pulled me outside and hugged me bahahahah i was like YESSSSS! and then he tried to kiss me but max's sister was there so i turned cos that woulda been awkward. shes friends with jenna.

and then i was walking away and shaylynn was like YOU SO LIKE HER      lmfao           ahah!

and then i was standing by the entrance waiting for my mom to come out and he walks by and slapped my butt c.c haha shaylynn goes JARREK!

and then i was standing there waiting and max goes so youre gonna sneak out and see us tonight right? and i was like uh, no. and he goes josie! you live four houses away from me. and i was like maybe ........ (but really i considered it for about half a second before i decided it was an absolutely terrible idea.)

so i never went. i stayed home all night. im pretty proud of myself. :D

he was so effing cute though.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppppppppppppppp :D :D :D :D

fricking fabulous night!<3

i cant stop thinking bout him.

10/23/10

oh my gosh.

"i love you i love you i love you
i mean what i say and i say what i mean
sometimes love is nothing to be seen

if it was measured by numbers
infinity is not enough
to explain how much i love you
unlike hilary duff

you ask how much
to the stars and back i say
you ask for how long
forever and a day

this poem explains some
but is not even close
to how much i love you
josie my angel, dearest and most<3"

10/17/10

PERFECT COUPLE

omg soooooo

i was talking to peter for the past 3 days about him and sophie. :) theyre the perfect couple <333 hes so nice to her

but so he texted me and was like josie?  can i talk to you for a sec?

and i was like uh huh sure!

so he started talking about how hes worried sophie's gonna find someone better than him, and how he doesnt deserve her </3 and he was like Josie she can do so much better than me, ive fallen in love with her and i can't lose her, but this girl is truly amazing and i can't believe im lucky enough to call her mine. and i was like peter! did you do something bad!? and he was like no i just really love her...and so i spent like 2 hrs trying to convince him he's worthy of her and a really wonderful person aha. :)

i love their happy little story. he always tells me what he does for her and im like HELLO DISNEY ADD THIS TO YOUR HAPPY FAIRY TALE RELATIONSHIPS! but theyve been together for a year now<33 i hope it lasts for like EVER.

life = confusing :P

10/14/10

this is gonna be another long post, i cann see it already:)

so, me and shayna left 1st hour again x) haha thats the beauty of core time..you pretend youre going to the library but you really leave class and jack around for 20 minutes!

so then when we got back from our fabulous adventure,, we were sposed to be researching energy crap for our poster. but what we really did was sit under the table with the laptop and mess around :D excellent times....<333

in language arts we did this thing where it was like someone says a word, and you say the first thing that comes to mind. so our first word was Dracula, and Mr Belanger had me and jake keithley (weirdooo) be the example. so mr b goes ready set DRACULAAAAAA and i was like NINJAAAA!!!! and jake goes .........scary? so i was like thanks dude. you totally blew it. ahaha it was fuh nee :D so then we went back to our tables. when we started we got through like 5 words before we got off topic:
ELYSIA: FAT
KYLEE: BAT
SHAYNA: SAT
BEN: ....drat?
JAYMIE: FAT!!!
ME: HAT? :D
JACK: JOSIE!
lmfao it was so funny. i was laughing so hard i was crying. so then we were watching a dracula video, and me and shayna wrote jack a note for 15 minutes:) he came back and he was like I LOVE IT ITS GOING ON MY WALL.

and then in spanish...oh dear my teachers a biznatch D: haha she always yells at us. so we make sure we annoy her extra. :D so eric was flickering the lights and pretending it wasnt him. she was getting all mad. and connor was singing yankee doodle but changing the words xD then me and carisa were playing miss mary mackkkk:D we were acting like kindergarteners cos she hates that.

so then in art i was waiting for them to call down the web leaders:D we finally got to do a connection! :DDD i was getting up to leave and tyler goes whoawhoawhoawhoaWAIT, youre leaving? :( and i was like yeeahh sorry :( but it was insanely fun. the kids were being so funny haha. i was like dancing with one of them:) and then there was this one insanely gorgeous girl named Hunter (i know i know its weird but shes SO PRETTY!) and shes like my new sixth grade best friend even though shes like extremely shy haha x)

so afterrrrrrrr school :)

i was talking to tyler and jacob, and then i had to leave so i went to hug jacob. we were hugging for a really long time and (i know this will sound sluttayyy BUT idfc.) i had my lips like pressed against his collarbone and i was just hugging him and tyler was like staring c.c and then tyler goes dude, you might as well kiss her. and started walking away

<33333 comment luvies!

10/9/10

lovely dayy(: even though this was thursday haha

what a wonderful day it was....

me and tyler were playing soccer..with a piece of wire..in art (: that was the funniest thing i have done in a long time. that kid is great. too bad hes with ryleigh, we'd be quite the pair. (: hahah

i stayed after school to do community service. we were making baby blankets haha. so it was Me, Josie, Tyler H, Jacob, Allison, this weird chick Brandi, this weird guy Seth, Rachael Whore-tello (her last names Botello hahah) Courtney, and this sixth grade chick. So me and Jacob were cutting the corners of the blankets...that was fricking hard! haha but we were a good team. and then Tyler was supposed to be sewing but basically he was pretending to be a stripper with the blankets lmfao. then he was standing on the tops of the desks jumping from one to the other and i was laughing at him, and i was like Ty im gonna laugh when you fall:) and he was like DONT DOUBT ME JOS! im not gonna fall! ....yeah right as he finished that sentence he fell hahah. i had to go help him up. and then we kept slapping each others asses with flexi-rulers:) and then since that friday was turban day, we were sewing turbans and Jacob and Tyler were wearing theirs. lmao, tylers was curious george and jacobs was snoopyyy:D we were singing to the radio and doing the stupidest little hand shakes lol.

and then since our core is having this like HUGEEE box top competition, tyler found this bucket of box tops and he was like HELL NO OUR CLASS GETS THIS and he takes off down the hallway lmao. so i kicked off my flip flops and chased after him. we ran all over the school and then he went in the boys bathroom hah. :) i was like eff that tyler im not afraid! so i went in there and jumped the stall wall x) so we were having a party in the bathroom lol. that was sooo funnn:)

and then when we were back in the classroom, everyone had left but me ty and jacob. and mrs graeff was just having us help her clean up. so she gave us her car keys to go put the sewing stuff in her car! we were out in the parking lot and then we realized something...we had no idea where the fuck her car was, or even what it looked like x) we were like SHIT. so we were walking around for like 20 minutes and couldnt find it. /: haha. so i was walking in the grass and stepped in this puddle and i was like EEEEEEEEEE THATS COLDDD haha, then i realized we were walking into the sunset together, :) all three of us! two guys anddd a girl. lmao. so thats our like new inside joke. we're all three gonna get married. xD and right as we were having this really funny moment Tyler got a bright idea to push the panic button on mrs graeff's keys, yeah we were like 20 feet from her car when we first started trying to find it! wtf! c.c ugh

haha so we went back up in mrs graeffs room and we had to explain wat happened cos she was lookin at us funny (x

then i said something about them and jacob and tyler pretended to be offended and went and sat in the corner and cried lmao.

then tylers mom came in and started yelling at him that shes been sitting in the parking lot for 20 mins xD it was so funny he was like efff youuu mommm i was having fun /:

and then me and jacob were leaving...so i pulled him into this like corner into a classroomm. and we hugged for literally five minutes. it was so cute. :) and then i had this sudden impulse to kiss himm....so i did :x

it was only the cheek though, i didnt wanna ruin the friendship.

it felt good<3 im glad i did it.

SO YEPP. that was thursday.

and then the main highlight of friday was when ty and jacob came and sat with us at lunch, RYLEIGH LOOKED PISSED AS SHITTTT :)

how do you like me now biatch?

10/4/10

( - to hillary - )

Okay, so I was talking to Flapper last night :) and idk i mean i was listening to this song called Need You by Travie McCoy .... and i mentioned to him that it reminds me of us :( it really does cos of after all the shiz ive been through he's one of the only guys i can trust ...  but at the same time i can't bring myself to do anything! so yeah, i know youre the only one that will understand this cos youve HAD boyfriends and youve BEEN thru situations like this :p ergg

and THEN

me and Figgle messing around. so we have like this ongoing war between us haha:) i was trying to go to class but he was like blocking me (uhm, basically grinding but whatever) on me all the way down the hall. so when we got to the end he turned around and was like this close
|...........| to my face and i honestly thought he was gonna kiss me >.> but then morgan ran over and was like WHATRE YOU GUYS DOING? and i was like ugh haha wtf morgan! so then Figgle was like byeeee:)

because of that, i went back to class haha.

then after school i was messing around with him again and we were play fighting lol:) so we were like pushing each other around and then i ended up like BOOBS TO BACK with him we were soo close. and then after a bit more of that i was like NO MY BOOBETHS YOU HIT THEM OWW

and so yeah that was pretty funny haha. so i used my ninja skills and pretended to kick him in the dickk:) and then the dumb ace put his hands like on my face c.C so i was like DO IT AGAIN AND IM LICKING YOUUUU. so what does figgle do? figgle puts his hands back on me face x.X

I LICKED HIM lmao. dont underestimate this chick!

haha ah man it was just like old times. pretty fun! i miss that kidd. he's like my best friend.

so yeah it was prettyy funn:))

10/2/10

Skank. :)

what went down with me and ryleigh (over text cos shes a skankk)
 
her: stop the shit talking! grow some balls and dont have your "best friend" talk shit for you!me: oh kay? dude seriously. uhm youre just as bad keeping this shit going. dont fuckin drag me into this to make it worse. lets all be mature it and fuckingg drop it kay?
her: well if you didnt say anything in the first place, we wouldnt be where we are right now! so until you apologize to me to my face or give me reasons why i am a slut, THEN THIS IS NOT OVER! :)
me: how many times do i have to say this to you before you fucking get it. i did not call you that! and i WILL say it to your face if i need to:) so dont take josies fucking actions out on me kay? this whole thing reminds me of fucking elementary school ryleigh. oh, for the record, im the type to talk shit to your face:)
her: no youre not because if you were, you wouldnt have has josie say it for you! and back off Tyler, he's my boyfriend, NOT yours!:) i had to laugh like  HA NOT FOR LONG SONNNN alright? then say it to my face!

me: i did not fuckin tell josie to say it for me! are those words not in your vocabulary cos you sure as hell dont seem to get it! i talk shit to your FACE not behind your back! im not a shit talker. :) just cos josie did it has NOTHING to do with me: ) and dude? where did you get that from? seriously?
her: Josie H aka your best friend said she told Tyler all that shit for you, because youre her best friend and supposibly you hate me. explain that to me!
me: this is what youre not fuckinggg understanding. i did not tell her to do it. i had no fucking IDEA she was doing it. i'm not a hater, i havent talked to you in two years, so im not gonna say shit about you until you give me reason to. :) 
her: okay well now im fine with you but you need to tell your best friend to check herself before i kick her ass? Thanks!:) me: are we fuckin cool now? im pretty sure were on he same level as far as how shit goes down with us. if someone has something to say about me i want them to say it to me personally, not my boyfriend. I love josie to death but this was fucking dumbbb. enough with the "no one likes a shit talker" stuff, its just ridiculous. lets get this shit over with already. her: okay im cool with you but you might wanna tell josie to watch her back. and no im not gonna stop with that. me: okay whatever, if you wanna act like a fifth grader. her: its what she gets for talking shit.